So it's Spring Break, and I'm bored and browsing Google Vids and I've just came across something quite disturbing and explains why America is as fucked up as it is. It's an anti-evolution lecture from an evangelical Christian university. My favorite part:

"Evolution is based on two faulty assumptions: number one, they say mutations make something new; that's never been observed. Number two, they say natural selection makes it survive and take over the population. Now think about this carefully. If an animal evolves a little better than the rest, what must happen to the rest of them in order for this process to work? They all have to die. Evolution is a religion of death, not life."

Well, except for "We've been lied to about the caveman. There was no caveman, unless you count Osama Bin Laden."

Speechless.

boo

Ahh! haha. i scared myself... ya anyway.
So i'm in Texas... yup, it's exciting i know... I'm chillin' at my aunt and uncles house. Just got back from my grandma's house in Arkansas... that was equally exciting.. haha. What is exciting is Chris is driving down to see me tomorrow... yay!haha....
Hmm, so my week in the states is unexciting. My departure to the states was exciting though. Last night, got really drunk (what else is new) and then got even drunker with Lauren and Julie. Ran out of alcohol. Decided to call guys over from Savoy to bring us some. haha. Johnson and Marlon (McKinnie) came over, with alcohol. Then Dan came.. unfortunately (for him) I was not much fun as I was a little drunk. Ok scratch that, really drunk... ah me and my untimely vomiting.. hehe... ya anyway, haven't talked to him since, kinda hoping he's not wishing death on me..ahah
Anyway, because Halliburton is paying for our cell, i will be calling ppl.. haha. and i'm in the states so i'm cheaper here (cus that sounds right...) donno my number. i will post it or just text it to you... enjoy..
I gotta go, perk of the US? Grandma's cookies.. yummy,
Miss you
Love,
Katie

Now this is my new living room. The couch and chair in the corner were $45 together at Value Village. Hells yea. We're still working on it.
Our toilet clogs. It sucks. We're getting it fixed as I'm writing. Grrrr. Otherwise we have a tub! I'm going to get pictures of my bedroom tomorrow :)

Summer, huh?

Hmm... I haven't really figured out what's going on yet. My dad says he may get some money together soon, but I highly doubt it so I'll be spending most of my summer in.... Nigeria. Mid-June to Mid-July or so I'm gonna be at Marlons.. speaking of which he's leaving the States in a week so there goes my only real connection in the area and Heather, my only way to get to Canada. But I'll see how that goes! After mid-July anything's good for me, my mom and sis are only in the states in August so I don't know which dates I can do or not, I'll ask tonight. Oh and go Katie on the whole sober-ness thing.. I dont think at Bard I was ever sober while with a guy!

Lauren

Summer, anyone?

Hey,
So I'm talking to Lyn and she says something about summer. I think, hmm. I like summer. Summer is fun. We should figure out what we're doing for summer so it'll be even more fun! ya...
So August we settled on, anyone else got some dates for us here? I think I start school around the 20th... Could be earlier... So sometime before that... Hey we could even actually be together to celebrate some B-days (Lauren - August 9th, Katie August 19th) and we all know that B-days are just a good excuse to get drunk... haha..
Ya so that's that...
Oh, BTW, managed to kiss Dan sober, which means this is acutally going somewhere... also wondering how long before I do a Katie style freakout.. hoping it'll come in like... July... haha
Miss you guys,
love
Katie

Katie!

I just wanted to say I love you. Hehe. I was looking at NHS stuff on first class. Yes, I still have access. You've become a one-woman machine! :P Cookies are the key to anyone's heart, muahaha.

I'm sober. I swear. I'm moving stuff outta my dorm. Yay. My friends are nice enough to buy me alcohol and to let me keep stuff in their apartments over the break. HAPPY ST. PATTY'S DAY

Public Service Announcement

I LOVE FROGS. Now that that's done with. Ya... i'm in english class. we're talking about how one of the new teachers got locked in her apartment because the door handle fell off. Ya.. so anyway my life is interesting. everyone found out that dan adn i were hooking up in saas fee. so my table has been abusive. it's fun. um...
limun has been hell. well sort of. it's kinda been fun at the same time, i have like shitloads to do...
gotta go, henderson just caught me writting this in class..
love you guys!
katie

It's Finalized

I'm moving into an apartment for sure.

New address is:
911 Indian Street Apt. #3
Bellingham, WA 98226

My parents are mad because they think it's a mistake and not practical. They're paying rent, but that's about it. They aren't even going to help me move in! Anyway. I'll be there from March 24 to the end of June, so anyone's welcome to share my new bed with me or sleep on the couch, depending on your gender...hehe.

So many expenses...

Bound to happen eventually

So I'll drop my personal bombshell... me and Marlon broke up. I don't even know if it's over or not really, because he needs "time to think".... my guess is that yeah, it's over, and we'll be "good friends" from now on. I've been having a lot of anger issues since I got to Bard and frankly if I was another friend of his I would have told him to dump me a long time ago. But I'm not, so it hurts. Maybe we'll get back together again, if I can prove that I'm not as fucked up as I've been acting lately.

Eek!

So I've already talked to a bunch of you, but I'm probably moving out of the dorms after Spring Break. I'm really excited for a kitchen, living room, and my own room. Overly excited. It all rests on my parents though. The person I'd be living with has already talked to hers, and they're all for it, so it's riding on the decision of mine. We'll see how it goes. So if any of you decide to randomly visit in May, then I'll have a good ol' mattress or couch for ya instead of the floor of a dorm room, plus an empty house since my parents will be gone in Saudi. Yaya. I'm so sick of getting in trouble for stupid shit. Grrr. Finally a place I'll be able to smoke in without getting in trouble.

Wish me luck you guys! Just think of all the cooking/baking I'd get done! ...and the drinking, smoking, and other such activities...lol.

Everybody's gotta do this...

I have just discovered the wonder of Rhapsody, one of those subscription buy-music-it's-legal-and-entertaining sites. However, *this* site has a free 14-day trial. Which, apparently, if you call to cancel they give you another 14 days. So really a free month. Now the thing is, normally, the music you "buy" during this time is protected by Rhapsody and is locked after the trial ends. BUT, if you convert it with Tunebite (it's semi-legal to do this i think), then there is no longer a protection on it and presto, free music, and a very-well-laid out site too, I might add. One of those sites with all the ridiculous subgenres of subgenres... the techno section is incredible. So yeah, that's my schpeal about that.

Went Skiing in Pennsylvania. Showed off. Ate shit on the ice. Life sucks and then you die.

STILL working my game. Maybe I try too hard. Damn girls.

Its about time Sanjar (sp) gets the shit knocked out of him

Alright quick response to everyone's shit.

-Lyn- Men are the devil. I've told you this way too many times. Then again, sleeping/making love to the devil is never a bad idea. He can give you lots of things you can't do for yourself.

-Katie - Control yourself. Now. You must have lost your godamn mind. But I love you.

-Chris... Basic Training. This Summer. What the fuck to expect? How in shape do I need to be in? What are the formalities. You want to come up to Massachusetts for a bit during the summer (if you're in DC it'll work...)

- Paul. I am going to eat your f*cking camera. I'm jealous.

-Lauren. I hope you enjoyed my rant/email. Feast your eyes and soul.

-Courtney. I didn't mean what I posted on Lynsey's profile. But May would be fun. Be my date to military ball.

-Liz. I got your message. Too bad I don't have a phone.

-Micah. POST SOMETHING YOU DOUCHEBAG.

Peace Bitches

So I like Joe. Joe doesn't want to be in a relationship at this stage in his life. Totally understandable. He said he would never intentionally hurt me. Again understandable. I don't mind. But now he doesn't answer if I call. It's not like I'm stalking him though. I only called because I wanted to hang out with someone other than my two dating friends, Taryn and Brian. I feel like they want to spend time alone together, but I'm always there...etc. Anyway. Taryn says that Joe is probably pushing me away, even as friends, so that he isn't forced to hurt me...or something like that. I think the blatantly avoiding me is hurting me more though. Why can't he just talk to me? If that's how he feels, I'd much rather he tell me, instead of me having to interpret his actions, or lack thereof. And exams are coming up in like a week. I don't need this confusion/stress/complication.

Basketball. I need to go play basketball. Get my mind off of stupid stuff. Intramural game tomorrow. That will help. We'll kick butt. Three times a week. Good exercise, mental and physical. College is so different from high school. I don't want to lose myself in it. Can't wait till this summer you guys.

Ah my life, the drama...

Hey!
Ya so definitly having issues remembering to update... ya. Anyway, last week was rough, with fucking Sharp and all his shit. But we got a ski day last Tuesday and we got one this Wednesday, it was awesome cus Wednesday's are the worst days... they're so long! Unfortunatly, the day was a 'sick day' and so the snow was amazing but the weather was bad.So we came back for lunch and were told as soon as we came down that the mountain was closed.This was a lie and we ended up missing the whole afternoon! I wanted to die. Then I went up on Saturday. Jeremy,Sean and I are standing, next to get on teh chairlift when Groom comes around the corner and starts yelling that LAS students aren't allowed up (avalanche was at 5). We're next and so we just get on the chairlift(after I yell that we'll sit at the top untili we're allowed and then I flipped him off. I was wearing gloves,so you could only sort of tell) we get to the top and are sent down. Ya that sucked. But we got in one more run than the rest of the school.yay. And then, Today we're not allowed up again. Which is part of why I'm updating. I have like nothing else to do. It's always work and snowboard...i'm so lost!! Anyway...
I'm actually not completely lost. My nights have been quite filled with making out and almost making out in the snow...haha I'll explain. And I'll actually say the whole thing cus I'm at the 'fuck it' point... Haha. So anyway, At the Nescafe party (like 4 weeks ago) we got late curfew (til 1am) for some of us (like 10 or so) and I got really drunk and made out with Dan Haden.So at this point he's still dating Sarah, so there's no mention of it cus.. well ya that's bad and I'm an evil person.Anwyay she comes and visits, this is like last week. Not sure if she found out or not (I'm convinced she did) anyway, they broke up (not becuase of me!)So ya, on Friday I got drunk quite mistakenly... really didn't mean too... went to dinner came, back and then we got kicked out of Top Pub cus Travis and Sanjhzar got into a fight... (more about that later) and we're walking back, and everyone gets into a snowball fight, eventually it's just Dan and I fighting in the snow. Came in very wet and snow covered and some very close to kisses to talk about. Saturday, similar story, except we somehow became a spectator sport or something. Half the bar was behind Dan as we were just talking and messing around, waiting for him to kiss me. It was quite funny. So we're walking back to the dorm, pushing into the snow, as usual, and we ended up making out in the snow. I think it was cute, everyone else seems to think we're crazy. So ya... No idea what's going on now...At all.. we'll just have to wait and see. We're talking about going to Saas Fee for the long weekend, on our own (like charlie, steph, trish, dan and joe and i) Anyway.
anyway, fight in Top Pub. No one knows how it started,really. Everyone was so confused, they just started fighting. Everyone agrees it was Sanjhzars fault. Ya. He's going home today, for a couple of reasons. He might not be coming back. Anywya, it was quite the downer... until my wreastling session in the snow... haha...
Anyway,
Miss you guys
Oh I'm gonna be in Texas and Arkansas for Spring Break. Chris, I'm like 3 hours away from you! I just need a car... haha also might be in flordia, we'll see..
Miss you guys
love
katie

Death Counter

Check out what I found... Death Counter. One of my friend's parents called worried about their daughter because there was a "violent murder in the national news." I wondered how often that actually happens... and found the death counter. pretty funny

When all else fails...

You are swept away into a void of uncertainty. Everything around you falls to peices and you are separated and detached from all that is real. The floor moves up, the ceiling moves down, and they move through you. You have lost touch with reality and have little hope of restablishing that link with everything you once knew. All your attempts to maintain that inner sense of existence within a uniform and consistent universe have failed. You tried to keep up your grades. You tried to keep your friends. You tried to keep your religion. But none of these things kept you attached to life. All else has failed and now you are detached. You have annihilated yourself and your existence is meaningless. Yet, somehow, you still exist, in another realm, another enduring space. You see everything as it was, as it still is, and as it continues to be, in that world you lost. Yet you cannot touch it, cannot smell it, cannot experience it. Remember, you don't exist in that world anymore, you annihilated yourself.

Soon, you begin to know your annihilation, the way you once knew your life. Things become clearer now that you can walk through walls. You notice the weeping, the tears, the hatred, the jealousy, and on occasion you even notice the happiness. Now that you don't exist, you stop thinking about your existence and simply long for the existence you see in everyone else. You've become an existentialist by proxy, and realize that if only you had thought more about your existence when you had one, maybe you might have noticed it's worth. Maybe you might have been able to hold onto it. Maybe you wouldn't have become detached. Maybe you wouldn't have annihilated yourself. Maybe all else really did fail, but then again, you never tried noticing your existence.